Tired, Yet Happy..

Whatever past had become a long forgotten history to me.. Learning from my everyday routines and from limitless philosophies, i seem to possess some enhanced determination to feel myself and forget her.. Think i can think a lot better, compared to the days when she just broke up with me..

Thinking about it, the change in me now actually comprise of two different mentality.. Could be bad, but who would go debate regarding this? Even for me, i'm halfway decided on what to do.. Sometimes i feel pissed off.. Why is he still trying to irritate me? The day will come for my revenge..

William Lau ( Lau Sai ), you better watch out.. Wait for my lawyer to visit your mother, your brother and of course, you.. Going by the law nowadays, having complete faith in the excellent government structure, believing that there's still fairness in the law of Singapore.. Huat ar!!

Body aching now.. Just returning from TBT ( Muay Thai ).. Going for a shower before residing to bed.. Nights!!

Back!!

Been some time since i last blogged..

My life - Guess i'm moving on with life currently.. Focusing more on my family now, hoping to give them a better life..

My career - Just embarked on my new job at Marks & Spencer as a sales associate.. Working hard to climb my way up the 'ladder', grabbing every opportunities in the future..

My love - Seems like i'm really beginning to lose faith in relationship.. I honour my words more heavily nowadays, still waiting for her to return.. Sometimes it's hard to understand, even myself..

Watching television now..

Time to log off..

Great Day!!

I will keep it short and simple for today.. Legs aching right now.. Lols.. Too long never walk for long distance.. Hmm.. Went to meet up with kenny at tampines.. Lots of changes over there, since the last time i went over.. Haha.. I'm outdated already.. Hangout there till approximately ten at night? Hmm.. Another day of hearty chats, subduing of previous night's hangover.. Simple can be wonderful too.. Ending here, time for me to sleep..

No Smoking - 22 days and ongoing..

P.S. Still awaiting for the miracle to come..

A Brand New Joezen!!

Hurtful situations happened to make me depressed till no words can describe, but i learnt from them to actually improve myself, my life.. Today will be the official day for me to forsake the past behind me.. I still love her wholeheartedly even till now, making a vow that no matter wat happens, i'll be there for her always till my dying moments.. I'm willing to wait, yet won't be expecting any returns.. Finally understand the real definitions of ' true love '..

Just reached home after a small quantity of drinks from Club Sensation, and of cause not missing out an exclusive, heart to heart chat with kenny.. Life, to me, is mostly filled with unfairness.. It's only up to individuals who really know the right methods to create the fairness in them.. Opportunities are always there, fate lingers nearby and then it's us to build our very own destiny.. I've learn not to give up, even upon facing the most difficult situations, ever ready to search for every single solutions to make things work out.. It's my life, i solely control it..

Am i happy? Guess i will be able to confidently give myself an answer in the near future.. *tired! Time for my journey to the west.. Lols.. Should be journey to the lala land.. Nights & sweet dreams..

No Smoking - 21 days and ongoing..

Mood - Moderate..

Health - Slightly feverish, flu.. ( Perhaps due to the effects of quitting my smoking habits.. )

Tiredness - Extreme.. Hahas..

Hectic Week Coming Soon!!

Finally managed to get myself a job.. Although it's just a part time job, it's still considered a great start to my remaining distance in my journey of life.. Need to stay focus and learn from my mistakes, in order for me to excel..

In the meantime, still searching extensively for a full time career.. I believe i can do it.. Been through a deal of ups and downs, time to really stabilize my long term commitments.. Today's my lucky day.. Just went to fill in the application form for the job and they just asked if i could start next week.. I immediately say yes.. Nice guy who interviewed me, but the lady boss seem kinda fierce and hostile.. Lols..

Hmm.. Next month birthday coming, possibility of booking a chalet is there.. Need to have some cash at least.. Must work harder.. Time for singlehood and start relaxing, in terms of mentality wise, for a period of time to perk myself better for the long run in my career..

Tired!! Nights!!

No Smoking - 19 days and ongoing..

A New Week Ahead!!

Today seem to be quite ' normal ' compared to the past few days.. Although the current situation doesn't appeal much to me, I'm still not giving up.. I believed that i can control my fate thus creating my destiny, not vice versa.. My financial state is currently devastating due to the pressure from the BTO issue, but definitely not gonna allow that to hinder me for too long, i hope..

What i need to do now is solely concentrating on getting a job, building my career, directing myself to the right of way.. Till now i still miss her badly, but i have to differentiate the heaviness of these few encounters.. The flashbacks are occupying my mind repeatedly.. I really need to concentrate from now onwards..

Before all these happened, i never knew that my family would actually accompany me through this ordeal.. I'm really fortunate to have my family by my side, especially my mother.. Sorry to have made you worry and sad for me.. Mummy, i love you..

Time for me to bid goodbye from here.. Nights.. Joezen, you can do it!!

No Smoking - 17 days and ongoing..

Fuming With Frustrations!!

What have i done wrong to deserve this? My girlfriend ( future wife ) went off with another guy.. That guy whom she went off with was trying to piss me off by calling me to say everything that they have been doing since they were together.. It's been two weeks plus already, why can't he just stop disturbing me? What he should be doing now is to concentrate on his job and save up money to support her, not to irritate me and play with other girls outside.. Damn pissed off!! I won't take this lying down.. We will see who's gonna to have the last laugh..

I'm in the process of changing to a better person, doing what i should be doing and quitting what i should be quitting.. Searching for jobs everywhere this few days, i really hope i can start working soon to actually restrict me from thinking excessively.. Can't imagine i wholeheartedly put all my feelings into my former, when even i knew will have no returns.. I need to keep telling myself one theory, which is, forgive and forget.. I really wanted to start a new life, regardless whether she will return to me in the future.. Tired and mentally stressed up currently.. Gonna stop at this point for now.. Nights!

P.S - ( To That Bastard ) - Better watch out!! I'll come for you one fine day..

No  Smoking - 16 days and ongoing..